well yesterday was fine, didn't spend finish all the money weirdly.. :/ quite boring cause we spent most of the time stoning ( well at least i was ) at the stage while watching retarded people paddle their asses away. well i woke up today again to go to "church" and i started thinking like.. very deeply about why i left church.. and i finally come to a conclusion on why i did. Keyword : Hatred. i look back and realised i had been going to church for.. the past 14 years of my life aimlessly.. and it all started falling apart when my parents went to another church while my brother and I clung onto that sickening church we were in.. well when i looked back.. the good young boy at sec 1.. listening to sermons attentively... going for biblestudy every week before church started... and as 1 year went by... i totally changed. i started rebelling. every pastor was an asshole to me. in terms of tithes. in terms of serving. in terms of ... idk ... and when i look into that problem i notice that its not the pastor being an ass, it was me. but the fact that they are money-faced bitches still remains tainted on their face though. well come to think of it i stayed in church unguided by my parents for 3 years till i left church.. so.. any chance of me going back to church by myself = no being forced = yes in the future if.. my wife brings me there.. yes :/ (gawd im thinking so far ahead lul, but when the time actually comes, all these just seemed like yesterday)
